151201
Tuesday, 1 December 2015 // 10:07 pm
It's been a while. This year has been absolutely crazy - in both good and bad ways - and I'm so thankful for everything. I can't recall when was the last time I did a proper blog entry... I guess that speaks volume already... It's been that long. Where should I even begin?
2015. Even before the year started I already knew this was going to be a big year for me. I will be starting university. With a bit of luck I might even start my first job. There will be a lot of new experiences. What exactly? Well who knows, but they were all going to be new and refreshing (hopefully), that I knew for sure.
Fast forward eleven months and here I am. It all came true. I survived, made it and I'm so contempt with everything I have right now. It's a similar sense of nostalgia, the exact same sentiments I felt after I completed the HSC last year and when I received my ATAR in January. Having said all that, of course not everything is perfect. I experienced plenty of downs this year but they are nothing compared to the ups. I feel like I have been really spoilt for the past two years.
In term of university I am definitely not doing my personal best, but the first year was still completed in a way that allows me to say I am personally satisfied despite the usual high expectations I have and set for myself. I still doubt my degree choice from time to time because I know it will only get harder in the next four years but I have a good feeling about this. Fingers crossed.
In addition I have also been given the opportunity to have two extremely inspiring and rewarding jobs. I'm not going to sugar coat it. It's hard. It's so damn hard, working two part-time jobs on top of full time university commitments. Others around me often ask, why? Why push yourself so hard? Why work this much when you don't need the money? It's actually quite simple - I just want to push myself as hard as I can to see what I can actually achieve. When the year first started I struggled and looking back now, I just can't believe how much I far I've come. I don't know how long it will last, but this has been an amazing journey so far and I know it will continue to be until the very end.
I don't want to say anything about the negatives because I'm tired and I'm over them. In its place, I'm just going to link this Artparasites article here.
Until next time. Labels: real life
111018
Tuesday, 18 October 2011 // 4:26 pm
My first ever pen pal mail is here! Everyone, can you feel my excitement? The photo above is my reply letter (which I posted today because I gave up on waiting and then after I get home, ha, guess what? Mum tells me I have mail) and it's so bad compared to my pen pal it's not funny. In terms of writing and what it was about... everything but I'll make up for it next time.
So yes, I am very happy right now. Her envelope is so cute as well which just brings mine to shame because I used those average plain white ones but as I said, I will make for it. Note to self.
Moving on, I am jamming to Secret's latest album Moving In Secret, in fact, what does that even mean? Whatever though, who cares about the album title when the songs are so amazing? Jokes, take that back. The album is pretty horrible being completely honest, I have never been a big fan of them. Magic (debut track) wasn't even good enough for me to download it, don't even talk about Madonna which is basically the exact same melody and they just changed the lyrics. Starlight Moonlight was cute and definitely different but it wasn't my type.
Now their latest come back track Love is MOVE is ridiculous. The song is horrible, it sounds like all their previous tracks mixed together, sounding very cheap. In fact the first few second of the song just screams at you, telling you "Hey! They totally got me off Magic and Madonna. I'm their secret love child." Second track Sexy is just as horrible, it's just cute and just bleh. They sound like another version of Girls' Day but with more vocal capability. Don't Laugh lightens up the whole album because the first and second track is just so disappointing but this third track kind of keeps you going, which brings us to Movie Star. The beat to it is like Madonna all over again. Why is it that Secret like to do the same songs with similar beats over and over? Is this their musical style? If so, fair enough and it's really annoying. It gives off the impression that you guys are too poor to hire other people to actually make songs that sound different. It's basically recycling your old songs again and again.
Now I present the best song on the album, Amazinger which is rapper Zinger's solo song. No, I'm not saying this is the best song because she is my favourite in the group but just go listen to it. I swear you won't be disappointed. It's possible to say she is one of the best rapper (her ability to flow on with the rapping unlike most of the girl group rapper out there) among Miryo from Brown Eyed Girls, E.Via, CL from 2NE1 and let's not forget Bekah of After School. Together which is the sixth track can take the place of the second best on the album. Not over done, not trying too hard to be catchy up till the point it's annoying, just enough.
I'll skip a few because they're not worth mentioning. Ending the album is Never land and Hope which is nicely done but nothing amazing. From a music point of view, this is pretty much a fail, and from a K-Pop point of view (making the song as catchy as possible), Love is MOVE is a huge fail. So um, Secret fans, you can kill me all you want. Or do I have any followers that are fans of Secret? You may unfollow. I'm sorry, I'm just so disappointed that I have to blog about this.
Secret has worked extremely hard no doubt but I don't see myself becoming a fan in the neat future.
Listening: Amazinger - Zinger of Secret
Reading:
Addicted:
Labels: kpop, real life
110302
Wednesday, 2 March 2011 // 3:26 pm
entry deleted.Labels: friends, personal, real life
110106
Thursday, 6 January 2011 // 12:52 pm
Happy New Year everybody! I'm a bit late as usual, sorry! The hiatus before is due to personal matters and as I explained earlier, I started this blog when I was in Year 6. I made mistakes by including false information about other's lives, the last year of primary was the 'rumour year', I don't know what's real or what's not, I just blog about them and if you get offended by it just show that and ask me kindly to delete it. (Honestly can not believe the first entry for 2011 is like this...) There is no use going crazy and mad and please don't make quick assumptions and think I'm talking about you because most likely I am not. You people need to calm down these days...
Don't think I don't know who visit the blog because I do track IP addresses - nothing against my lovely followers. Just need to let my real life stalkers know this. Simply because you didn't want the 'other person' to tell me doesn't mean I can't find out who you are. So I know your going to read this, big round of applause goes to you! For stalking me non-stop and going back to read entries I typed two years ago trying to start up a fight. I never knew my blog interest you that much.
As my blog receives a fair amount of visitors each day, I promise from now on I'll be more careful on what I put on here. Blogging is something I enjoy and consider private actually, by that I mean people can read it but not going to spreading false information about my entries. Most definitely I will not let some stupid haters in real life that have no guts to admit who they are to stop me from doing so. These stupid stalker-people-who-I-know-in-real-life aside... I hope all my amazing followers had a great Christmas and is ready for the new year!
Listening:
Reading:
Excited:
Labels: blog, real life
Day 21 — Someone You Judge By Their First Impression
Wednesday, 20 October 2010 // 6:30 pm
Lucky me, I'll be going to Melbourne for a few days on Saturday for some special stuff. Which means I get to miss school. It's not that I don't like school but it's good to have a break
even though I've only been back for a week. + Travelling to South Korea, Japan and China early next year for some other stuff, dates all confirmed and everything. Mega excited :)
With all the yearly exams thrown at us for the past week, I think I am coping quite well. Apart from Math as explained in this
entry here. So far I am done with History (one more to go), Science and Technology. With only P.E and Japanese to go which is another pain in the behind just like Math. How are all my followers doing? Since the majority of you are from Australia, you guys are doing exams too yeah? Well good luck. As long as you don't flunk your grades then you'll be fine.
Day 21 — Someone You Judge By Their First ImpressionDon't all human beings judge on first impression? We all know what they say, '
never judge a book by its cover' also applies to us - human beings. We know it's wrong, it's not right and it should not be done but we do it anyway. It is human nature, there really isn't much we can do abou it. As long as you later judge by personality.
Moving on. Sorry to all the people that's been judged by me based on first impression which for me is another way of saying judging by appearance. Hey, at least the first impression will only last for me for like about a few minutes. I judge someone by personality in the long term. Not lying here, dead serious. To all those people out there that do judge by first impression, grow up.
Labels: 30 Letter Challenge, real life
100724
Saturday, 24 July 2010 // 6:02 pm
What's up everyone? How was your Saturday? I was in the library doing nothing when I really was suppose to study. Just recorded Jovone TV's introduction video. Will be uploaded tonight! Special mission next Wednesday to North Sydney, St. George, Caringbah and Tempe! The whole trip will be filmed and become the first episode. Will be released next Saturday.
It's going to be lots of fun! So if your bored then please look forward to this home made series. One episode will be out each week.
OK background information update: Jovone TV is not actually a reality show or something. It's a series of fun, real, home made videos of me and my cousin, Yvonne. Most of time we film it ourselves but sometimes others do it for us. We record the fun things that happened to us during the week and footage of our training. One episode a week. All episodes will be deleted at the end of this year and will be uploaded onto Facebook only to stop people from downloading the video.
Hit your questions and comment at joanne@paincakes.tk
Listening: Ready or Not - SHINee
Reading:
Addicted:
Labels: real life
100524
Monday, 24 May 2010 // 5:34 pm
"A goal without a plan is a wish." - Larry Elder
"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone - but it takesa life time to forget someone."
Live for the Moment
So Kate Ritchie has decided to leave Sunday Roast on Sunday Magazine. I always enjoyed her writing. Best of luck in the future. Though to be very honest, The Ladder and Ten Things Can't Live Without has to stay! They are what starts off my week.
Listening: Your Beautiful OST
Reading: Sunday Roast
Addicted: The Ladder
Labels: real life
gingerbread
Friday, 14 May 2010 // 8:50 pm
To me, the idea of heaven would give you certain pleasures, certain joys - but it's very important to have an intellectual understanding of why you want those things. It's also about discovery, and being able to come to the conclusions that elude you in life. So it's from the most simplistic things - Susie wants a duplex - to larger things, like being able to understand why her mother was always slightly distant from her. - Alice Sebold
It is when trouble makes a visit when we realise how precious and a good life we had before. It is never too late to make a commitment - only never. Of all greatest things in life friendship and family are indeed the best you can ask for.
These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life. (The Lovely Bones)
Life is certainly not easy but I am thankful to be breathing and sitting in front of a computer typing this to you. Many expressed their opinions of me as a very emo-tional person. All the time, everyone feels so far away from me. I can be sitting next to my friends at recess and lunch but it feels like we are not in the same world. There is an invisible wall that you can not see or touch, only sensing it there. During Primary many called me
emotional, I disagreed but no one would stop for a second and listen to the two words: I'm Not. Sometimes I say too much but at times it is only necessary. Now a days I even find it tiring to speak, I need to use a lot of effort to do simple things like listening. People say
time will solve everything... let's hope it's right. That will certainly make my life a lot easier... I guess the clock does tick life away.
You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and i wish you were dead! Dead! do you hear me? Dead! (A Child Called "It")
Sometimes at the busiest time of everyone else's day, why not stop and freeze for 30 seconds? This is something I repeat on a daily pattern and is what has been keeping me standing for the past few weeks.
Think of what you are doing, good thing or bad thing, is it necessary? Will doing it make my life or most importantly, myself any happier? Since I have been sick for the past week and my parents are fighting every night this entry about life is the most I can offer to you guys. Learn to control yourself and the emotions within, it'll become the best skill you can ever learn.
I always get told I think too much and about way too complicated things for someone my age. Sorry to say but I can not control this; people and things around me does. My parents have been the main influence for me since the second I was born and they were nothing but bad influence. I have realised this a long, long time ago but it was until recently that my common sense confirmed it. I refused to believe it, blocking it out but after thirteen years it is simply something you can not ignore. Everything here (except for text in italics) are being typed and told through my way of things. You do not have to agree, just show some respect for it.
Are You Happy?
I know I'm not.
Labels: family, life, personal, quotes, real life
(L)
Saturday, 20 March 2010 // 6:31 pm
I always had a thing for cute guys in the library. So today when I saw the cutest guy ever to work in a library, I literally melted. Sounds disturbing? Yeah well... it was.
Listening: Run Devil Run - Girls' Generation
Addicted:
Reading:
Labels: real life
Bye Bye
Tuesday, 10 November 2009 // 4:05 pm
Warning: The post your about to read may cause confusion. Please read no future if your not a close friend of mine. Read at your own risk.As much as I love Australia and the friends I made here during the past three years I have decided that it's time to leave for a better place. This was a very difficult decision but I guess it's decided wisely by both of my parents. Since it's their decision I will absolutely support it. To be honest I don't see why there is a reason for me not to.
A fresh new change won't do any harm. And I am more than ready to leave everything... including everyone behind now.
Labels: real life
Proper entry
Sunday, 27 September 2009 // 12:37 pm
Forget about Hiatus, I need to post a entry. Nine more days till the exchange trip, I want to make the most of blogging. I will try and post short entries once in a while during the trip who keep those who are interested. Also I will send mails to my close friends so all is well.
6th - 14th October: This is a short exchange trip to China, I will be back before Term 4 starts.
November 2009 - January 2010: Most people are getting confused, this exchange trip is the one that will last over two months. I will be going to Tokyo, Singapore and China. This one however, I do not go with my school but my music school and during the last two weeks, with my parents back in China.
Just then I was searching up about Qantas' entertainment onboard. You will be surprised at how many movies they have (well... not really)! Check out the list here:
http://www.qantas.com.au/travel/airlines/in-the-air/global/en. Oh and I won't post the destinations and such for the exchange trip up for those of you who have been asking because I just cbf :D
I've been listening to F.T. Island a lot lately in fact, mainly Korean music. I don't know why because I used to dislike bands in Korea especially DBSK. I'm guessing it's probably because now I'm a translator at a Korean Enterainment site and I've been really active in the forums. Honestly, talking about K-Pop has never been so fun.
Bebo and Facebook is so gay now, especially Facebook. It seems like everyone has Facebook and most of them all act so gay. Online or offline, I'm not surprised for some.
+I cleaned my room last night and I found so many new stuff that I never used. Like ipod cases, hair extension, note books (mostly from
Smiggle and
Morning Glory), pencil cases. And they are all new like all wrapped up in packages. Yeah and I don't want them anymore? So I'm selling them online using my mum's Ebay account :)
So if anyone is interested you should tell me 'cos I have ten new pencil cases from Smiggle and note books from Morning Glory that I bought for like $10. Now I'm selling them for like $4 or some shit.
Listening: Breathe - G-Dragon
Reading:
Addicted:
Picture credit: http://banp.deviantart.com/
Labels: internet, real life, school
Society Says
Sunday, 6 September 2009 // 10:14 am
I've had a busy week that explains why on all the weird entries. I will be even busier next week so don't be surprised if I don't post all week.
Recently I'm both shocked and disappointed of my life due to the little things that happen day by day. At first they seemed to be small and whatever but now slowly they are building up together. Thinking about it now though... what a joke.
Edit: Some people just can't lose and when they do they get a bit over reacted. Tries to make it all seem OK to them but fails. No one is blaming you for the fact your too scared to post own photos of yourself up because well, your just too ugly. No one blamed you for the fact you posted up pictures of
blondies and pretended as them.
Drop it before everyone throws shits at you. Just because no one is mentioning about it it does not mean people already forgot about it. Everyone just have a life unlike this person. Internet is the best they can do.
Woot.
Listening: 22 - Lily Allen
Reading:
Addicted: honoured deaths
It's sad but it's true how society says, her life is already over.
Labels: real life
Guys I'm Sorry - again
Thursday, 27 August 2009 // 6:54 pm
I am so sorry. I realised, I'm so selfish. Through all those hard times you guys has always been there for me without any complaining. Not only that, you guys even tried to cheer me up. I however, failed to do all those things.
Whenever people needed my help, I stay as far away as possible. I just didn't want to get myself into a mess with other people.
I'm so selfish.
Take what happened today for exmaple. I broke my digital camera and Julien offered me her new Prada phone. Although the camera on that phone is only 2 mega pixels but it was the newest version of Prada phones. I was like "..."
Then Vicky decided she would buy new a new digital camera, nothing near my old and dead camera of course which is 8 mega pixels. I was so touched for a second.
If this situation happend to other people I would be thinking "who cares. Not my camera." I promise these kinds of feelings won't happen again!
Labels: real life
I am me, your not needed in my world
Thursday, 11 June 2009 // 9:02 pm
I will not care if you say my friends are fat, nerdy, Asian or ugly. They are my friends and I do not consider you anymore than a person who judges people by their appearance. I like them just the way they are and I do not think they should change for anyone especially for fitting in. (Not mentiong any names...)
Also, how many times do I have to say it?
I am not your personal photoshop (or bebo) editor! You did not pay me for it, so I do not have to do it for you. Not like I'm actually worth paying for anyways. :$ You think you can treat me like a stranger in school then start a nice conversation with me on msn and then after a few seconds start asking me questions about bebo or photoshop will work? Well it's not working.
This message is not only to the people who send messages about it recently but to everyone who had done it.Internet is just a small part of my life. I will not care if you start hating me about it because I never liked you in the first place :D Yes, I will help my friends if they need help but not you. People who try and act nice when they need help.
Anyways, it's now 22:29pm (time at the top is wrong). Just finished my Technology assignment. It was fun actually but designing a uniform really isn't my kind of thing. I have decided to get my marks because thanks to Josephine today. She told me if I don't start getting my marks up I will be kicked out of Gifted and Talented class (fine with me...) and some other people like Joan will replace me (not find with me)! Don't get me wrong, Joan is alright but I don't like the idea of someone replacing me.
So I'm getting my marks up for myself and... for my parents (: Say I'm a nerd I couldn't care less. I feel more comfortable being one anyways. I suppose I should go and sleep now? Have to wake up at six tomorrow in the morning S: OH YEAH! MOVIES TOMORROW WITH DAD - HOPEFULLY. Yes! Yeah, I'm a family girl.
Oh and found out Evie (Evangeline) in my class is actually going to the China trip! ;o Yes! I won't be a loner! Yes! I'm not the only one in Year 7. Oh my god, I really have to go to sleep now. Tomorrow -
assignment due, English test money due, China trip (and passport) information due, movies with dad and maybe movies with Kristy, Vanessa and Anna in the weekends? Aye, busy week. I like, I like (;
Listening: BoLoBoLoMi - Xie Na
Reading: Sundae Girl - Cathy Cassidy
Addicted: uh mm... school?
Labels: family, friends, obsessions, personal, random, real life, school
Thank you for the amazing day! :)
Friday, 5 June 2009 // 6:38 pm
Turns out life isn't so boring after all. This awesome day is made up by:
- talking to Wendy and found out why Thuy hates me
- awesome science lesson thanks to Amelia and Jessica
- talking to Julien (and Vicky), 'cos they're cool ;)
- finished watching Benjamin Button
- watching Revolutionary Road later
- and lastly... it's Friday! Duh!
Although I recently got 'dumped' by someone (at least according to him.
LOL, what a joke) I'm still happy because he's just a small part of my life and he's role is not even as important as the toilet. Oh and yer, it's the long weekend! :D
Thuy not only hates me but she is only jealous of me. Big surprise, not. According to Wendy it first started on the first day of high school when everyone was crowding around me for a reason I do not remember. Wendy was like "Oh look, that girl looks kind of popular." to
Thuy and yeah you guessed it, she went mad and spilled shits about me when she didn't even know me personally then! She must take the whole 'popularity' thing very seriously.
A list of things Thuy has done because of me or to make me look stupid: 1) Wearing a headband and everyone said she was copying me so she took it off. Sucker. 2) Starts wearing a tie and wearing it in a way I usually do. Again, people ended up saying she copied me so she stopped doing the way I usually do it but still wearing a tie. 3) Having her hair done or in various weird hairstyles. 4) Starts wearing school pants. 5) Trying to act smart during Math class since everyone knows I suck at math :D &more, but I cbf to type it.
Finally got in contact with James! :D :D Thanks to Martin or else I would never know James actually done such a thing to the band ): All music school buddies meeting in the city this Sunday at the usual old place at 2:00. Everyone who still love/hate/wants to see James then come. All music school friends are welcome (:
A quick shout out to: Julien, Amelia, Jessica just because they are so damn awesome. LOL, had a very fun day today. PWNED Amelia at typing. Also, to any very close friends of mine who have my JW online blog entry password, you can now start logging onto it to view my locked entries since I have decided to start posting entries again. Yes, they are the old usual super damn secret entries of mine ;)
Thank you nekonette.net for hosting me :D I will try and be a good one this time.
Listening: Play My Music - Jonas Brothers (soundtrack)
Reading: Sovay - Celia Rees
Addicted: Mr. Tim Burton's movies!
Labels: friends, real life, school
soccer ruin my life
Tuesday, 26 May 2009 // 4:41 pm
I love soccer yet at the same time it always ruins my day. In primary I didn't like it because I really sucked at it, I wasn't the worst in the team but no one ever counts on me. Now that I'm actually good at it people hate me because of it. You can probably guess, I'm really confused at the moment.
Some people are probably angry about the fact I didn't stay off. Not even once well to be honest, I didn't want to go off... actually no, I do want to go off. But who is there to replace me? No one. Being a goal keeper is not fun, if the other team score a goal then your dead. You have a lot of pressure if your the goal keeper -hint hint: who's me-
When finally someone decided she wants to be the goal keeper instead. I was so thankful of that person... for two seconds because that person was Angela. Oh yes, I'm talking about Angela Si Yu Chen. For the people who don't know her then tough luck. For the people who do know her... yeah you know what I'm thinking right?
I'm going to go and do my Geography assignment and English homework now. -screams- Life is so hard.
ONE MORE THING BEFORE I GO: RUKI IS HOT. DONT ARGUE WITH IT! (:
Listening To: Cassis- GazettE
Reading: Fitterwig - Cullen
Addicted: ruki
Labels: friends, random, real life, school, sport
I am failing
Monday, 18 May 2009 // 9:18 pm
So I didn't really mean to eavesdrop
Thuy and Tiffany's conversation but I couldn't help it. Their conversation was really... something quite unexpected I should say.
But anyways, I fail
- -not able to pay for writing
-worst in drums
-flunked science, math and tech so far.
-no idea what I'm suppose to do with homework
See how all these things i related to school? Yea, school is a ass in the behind. For some happy update, I found Paramore's Decode drum tab on the net. I will be practicing on it as soon as possible :D And that is all for now, I'm tired.
Listening To: Money Honey - Lady Gaga
Reading: Lovely Complex (I'm addicted)
Addicted To: Otani !
Labels: real life, school
say whatt
Thursday, 30 April 2009 // 4:55 pm
I was randomly searching through Gazette fan sites and I found a bunch of yaoi fan fictions. I was so shocked, I know Japan was kind of into the whole yaoi thing and they appear to be in mangas as well but I didn't know people would write these stuff based on actual people. Especially when they don't have their permisson.
Anyways I read one about Reita and Ruki and it was so disturbing =/
anyways, my brother is coming out of the hospital tomorrow :D
Labels: bored, brother, internet, real life
iLoveyou Chris, happy birthday
Tuesday, 28 April 2009 // 3:46 pm
Yup, this is a very special day because my brother has borned, aprox one hour earlier. I can not describe how I feel this very moment. I haven't shared this news with my friends or my cousins yet. I'm going to the hospital later to take some sweeeet photos of him then I'm going to send it to everyone (who are worth sending to of course!).
-some info about my brother-
Name: Chris w.
Gender: a boy (lol)
Sign: Taurus
His face is the cutest thing on earth! :D
Ok anyways, I'll make sure to post a photo of him on here a.s.a.p. Haha, I'm surprised by the fact I haven't told lots of people I actually have a little brother coming. They were just like 'supp.' or 'are you free on tuesday?' and I said 'Can't gotta go hospital.' they go 'wtff? Whyyy?' and I go 'my brother is coming out!' LOL
(somehow I just knew i'm going to be a great sister!) xo
More updates later.
Labels: bored, brother, holidays, real life
151201
Tuesday, 1 December 2015 // 10:07 pm
It's been a while. This year has been absolutely crazy - in both good and bad ways - and I'm so thankful for everything. I can't recall when was the last time I did a proper blog entry... I guess that speaks volume already... It's been that long. Where should I even begin?
2015. Even before the year started I already knew this was going to be a big year for me. I will be starting university. With a bit of luck I might even start my first job. There will be a lot of new experiences. What exactly? Well who knows, but they were all going to be new and refreshing (hopefully), that I knew for sure.
Fast forward eleven months and here I am. It all came true. I survived, made it and I'm so contempt with everything I have right now. It's a similar sense of nostalgia, the exact same sentiments I felt after I completed the HSC last year and when I received my ATAR in January. Having said all that, of course not everything is perfect. I experienced plenty of downs this year but they are nothing compared to the ups. I feel like I have been really spoilt for the past two years.
In term of university I am definitely not doing my personal best, but the first year was still completed in a way that allows me to say I am personally satisfied despite the usual high expectations I have and set for myself. I still doubt my degree choice from time to time because I know it will only get harder in the next four years but I have a good feeling about this. Fingers crossed.
In addition I have also been given the opportunity to have two extremely inspiring and rewarding jobs. I'm not going to sugar coat it. It's hard. It's so damn hard, working two part-time jobs on top of full time university commitments. Others around me often ask, why? Why push yourself so hard? Why work this much when you don't need the money? It's actually quite simple - I just want to push myself as hard as I can to see what I can actually achieve. When the year first started I struggled and looking back now, I just can't believe how much I far I've come. I don't know how long it will last, but this has been an amazing journey so far and I know it will continue to be until the very end.
I don't want to say anything about the negatives because I'm tired and I'm over them. In its place, I'm just going to link this Artparasites article here.
Until next time. Labels: real life
111018
Tuesday, 18 October 2011 // 4:26 pm
My first ever pen pal mail is here! Everyone, can you feel my excitement? The photo above is my reply letter (which I posted today because I gave up on waiting and then after I get home, ha, guess what? Mum tells me I have mail) and it's so bad compared to my pen pal it's not funny. In terms of writing and what it was about... everything but I'll make up for it next time.
So yes, I am very happy right now. Her envelope is so cute as well which just brings mine to shame because I used those average plain white ones but as I said, I will make for it. Note to self.
Moving on, I am jamming to Secret's latest album Moving In Secret, in fact, what does that even mean? Whatever though, who cares about the album title when the songs are so amazing? Jokes, take that back. The album is pretty horrible being completely honest, I have never been a big fan of them. Magic (debut track) wasn't even good enough for me to download it, don't even talk about Madonna which is basically the exact same melody and they just changed the lyrics. Starlight Moonlight was cute and definitely different but it wasn't my type.
Now their latest come back track Love is MOVE is ridiculous. The song is horrible, it sounds like all their previous tracks mixed together, sounding very cheap. In fact the first few second of the song just screams at you, telling you "Hey! They totally got me off Magic and Madonna. I'm their secret love child." Second track Sexy is just as horrible, it's just cute and just bleh. They sound like another version of Girls' Day but with more vocal capability. Don't Laugh lightens up the whole album because the first and second track is just so disappointing but this third track kind of keeps you going, which brings us to Movie Star. The beat to it is like Madonna all over again. Why is it that Secret like to do the same songs with similar beats over and over? Is this their musical style? If so, fair enough and it's really annoying. It gives off the impression that you guys are too poor to hire other people to actually make songs that sound different. It's basically recycling your old songs again and again.
Now I present the best song on the album, Amazinger which is rapper Zinger's solo song. No, I'm not saying this is the best song because she is my favourite in the group but just go listen to it. I swear you won't be disappointed. It's possible to say she is one of the best rapper (her ability to flow on with the rapping unlike most of the girl group rapper out there) among Miryo from Brown Eyed Girls, E.Via, CL from 2NE1 and let's not forget Bekah of After School. Together which is the sixth track can take the place of the second best on the album. Not over done, not trying too hard to be catchy up till the point it's annoying, just enough.
I'll skip a few because they're not worth mentioning. Ending the album is Never land and Hope which is nicely done but nothing amazing. From a music point of view, this is pretty much a fail, and from a K-Pop point of view (making the song as catchy as possible), Love is MOVE is a huge fail. So um, Secret fans, you can kill me all you want. Or do I have any followers that are fans of Secret? You may unfollow. I'm sorry, I'm just so disappointed that I have to blog about this.
Secret has worked extremely hard no doubt but I don't see myself becoming a fan in the neat future.
Listening: Amazinger - Zinger of Secret
Reading:
Addicted:
Labels: kpop, real life
110302
Wednesday, 2 March 2011 // 3:26 pm
entry deleted.Labels: friends, personal, real life
110106
Thursday, 6 January 2011 // 12:52 pm
Happy New Year everybody! I'm a bit late as usual, sorry! The hiatus before is due to personal matters and as I explained earlier, I started this blog when I was in Year 6. I made mistakes by including false information about other's lives, the last year of primary was the 'rumour year', I don't know what's real or what's not, I just blog about them and if you get offended by it just show that and ask me kindly to delete it. (Honestly can not believe the first entry for 2011 is like this...) There is no use going crazy and mad and please don't make quick assumptions and think I'm talking about you because most likely I am not. You people need to calm down these days...
Don't think I don't know who visit the blog because I do track IP addresses - nothing against my lovely followers. Just need to let my real life stalkers know this. Simply because you didn't want the 'other person' to tell me doesn't mean I can't find out who you are. So I know your going to read this, big round of applause goes to you! For stalking me non-stop and going back to read entries I typed two years ago trying to start up a fight. I never knew my blog interest you that much.
As my blog receives a fair amount of visitors each day, I promise from now on I'll be more careful on what I put on here. Blogging is something I enjoy and consider private actually, by that I mean people can read it but not going to spreading false information about my entries. Most definitely I will not let some stupid haters in real life that have no guts to admit who they are to stop me from doing so. These stupid stalker-people-who-I-know-in-real-life aside... I hope all my amazing followers had a great Christmas and is ready for the new year!
Listening:
Reading:
Excited:
Labels: blog, real life
Day 21 — Someone You Judge By Their First Impression
Wednesday, 20 October 2010 // 6:30 pm
Lucky me, I'll be going to Melbourne for a few days on Saturday for some special stuff. Which means I get to miss school. It's not that I don't like school but it's good to have a break
even though I've only been back for a week. + Travelling to South Korea, Japan and China early next year for some other stuff, dates all confirmed and everything. Mega excited :)
With all the yearly exams thrown at us for the past week, I think I am coping quite well. Apart from Math as explained in this
entry here. So far I am done with History (one more to go), Science and Technology. With only P.E and Japanese to go which is another pain in the behind just like Math. How are all my followers doing? Since the majority of you are from Australia, you guys are doing exams too yeah? Well good luck. As long as you don't flunk your grades then you'll be fine.
Day 21 — Someone You Judge By Their First ImpressionDon't all human beings judge on first impression? We all know what they say, '
never judge a book by its cover' also applies to us - human beings. We know it's wrong, it's not right and it should not be done but we do it anyway. It is human nature, there really isn't much we can do abou it. As long as you later judge by personality.
Moving on. Sorry to all the people that's been judged by me based on first impression which for me is another way of saying judging by appearance. Hey, at least the first impression will only last for me for like about a few minutes. I judge someone by personality in the long term. Not lying here, dead serious. To all those people out there that do judge by first impression, grow up.
Labels: 30 Letter Challenge, real life
100724
Saturday, 24 July 2010 // 6:02 pm
What's up everyone? How was your Saturday? I was in the library doing nothing when I really was suppose to study. Just recorded Jovone TV's introduction video. Will be uploaded tonight! Special mission next Wednesday to North Sydney, St. George, Caringbah and Tempe! The whole trip will be filmed and become the first episode. Will be released next Saturday.
It's going to be lots of fun! So if your bored then please look forward to this home made series. One episode will be out each week.
OK background information update: Jovone TV is not actually a reality show or something. It's a series of fun, real, home made videos of me and my cousin, Yvonne. Most of time we film it ourselves but sometimes others do it for us. We record the fun things that happened to us during the week and footage of our training. One episode a week. All episodes will be deleted at the end of this year and will be uploaded onto Facebook only to stop people from downloading the video.
Hit your questions and comment at joanne@paincakes.tk
Listening: Ready or Not - SHINee
Reading:
Addicted:
Labels: real life
100524
Monday, 24 May 2010 // 5:34 pm
"A goal without a plan is a wish." - Larry Elder
"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone - but it takesa life time to forget someone."
Live for the Moment
So Kate Ritchie has decided to leave Sunday Roast on Sunday Magazine. I always enjoyed her writing. Best of luck in the future. Though to be very honest, The Ladder and Ten Things Can't Live Without has to stay! They are what starts off my week.
Listening: Your Beautiful OST
Reading: Sunday Roast
Addicted: The Ladder
Labels: real life
gingerbread
Friday, 14 May 2010 // 8:50 pm
To me, the idea of heaven would give you certain pleasures, certain joys - but it's very important to have an intellectual understanding of why you want those things. It's also about discovery, and being able to come to the conclusions that elude you in life. So it's from the most simplistic things - Susie wants a duplex - to larger things, like being able to understand why her mother was always slightly distant from her. - Alice Sebold
It is when trouble makes a visit when we realise how precious and a good life we had before. It is never too late to make a commitment - only never. Of all greatest things in life friendship and family are indeed the best you can ask for.
These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life. (The Lovely Bones)
Life is certainly not easy but I am thankful to be breathing and sitting in front of a computer typing this to you. Many expressed their opinions of me as a very emo-tional person. All the time, everyone feels so far away from me. I can be sitting next to my friends at recess and lunch but it feels like we are not in the same world. There is an invisible wall that you can not see or touch, only sensing it there. During Primary many called me
emotional, I disagreed but no one would stop for a second and listen to the two words: I'm Not. Sometimes I say too much but at times it is only necessary. Now a days I even find it tiring to speak, I need to use a lot of effort to do simple things like listening. People say
time will solve everything... let's hope it's right. That will certainly make my life a lot easier... I guess the clock does tick life away.
You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and i wish you were dead! Dead! do you hear me? Dead! (A Child Called "It")
Sometimes at the busiest time of everyone else's day, why not stop and freeze for 30 seconds? This is something I repeat on a daily pattern and is what has been keeping me standing for the past few weeks.
Think of what you are doing, good thing or bad thing, is it necessary? Will doing it make my life or most importantly, myself any happier? Since I have been sick for the past week and my parents are fighting every night this entry about life is the most I can offer to you guys. Learn to control yourself and the emotions within, it'll become the best skill you can ever learn.
I always get told I think too much and about way too complicated things for someone my age. Sorry to say but I can not control this; people and things around me does. My parents have been the main influence for me since the second I was born and they were nothing but bad influence. I have realised this a long, long time ago but it was until recently that my common sense confirmed it. I refused to believe it, blocking it out but after thirteen years it is simply something you can not ignore. Everything here (except for text in italics) are being typed and told through my way of things. You do not have to agree, just show some respect for it.
Are You Happy?
I know I'm not.
Labels: family, life, personal, quotes, real life
(L)
Saturday, 20 March 2010 // 6:31 pm
I always had a thing for cute guys in the library. So today when I saw the cutest guy ever to work in a library, I literally melted. Sounds disturbing? Yeah well... it was.
Listening: Run Devil Run - Girls' Generation
Addicted:
Reading:
Labels: real life
Bye Bye
Tuesday, 10 November 2009 // 4:05 pm
Warning: The post your about to read may cause confusion. Please read no future if your not a close friend of mine. Read at your own risk.As much as I love Australia and the friends I made here during the past three years I have decided that it's time to leave for a better place. This was a very difficult decision but I guess it's decided wisely by both of my parents. Since it's their decision I will absolutely support it. To be honest I don't see why there is a reason for me not to.
A fresh new change won't do any harm. And I am more than ready to leave everything... including everyone behind now.
Labels: real life
Proper entry
Sunday, 27 September 2009 // 12:37 pm
Forget about Hiatus, I need to post a entry. Nine more days till the exchange trip, I want to make the most of blogging. I will try and post short entries once in a while during the trip who keep those who are interested. Also I will send mails to my close friends so all is well.
6th - 14th October: This is a short exchange trip to China, I will be back before Term 4 starts.
November 2009 - January 2010: Most people are getting confused, this exchange trip is the one that will last over two months. I will be going to Tokyo, Singapore and China. This one however, I do not go with my school but my music school and during the last two weeks, with my parents back in China.
Just then I was searching up about Qantas' entertainment onboard. You will be surprised at how many movies they have (well... not really)! Check out the list here:
http://www.qantas.com.au/travel/airlines/in-the-air/global/en. Oh and I won't post the destinations and such for the exchange trip up for those of you who have been asking because I just cbf :D
I've been listening to F.T. Island a lot lately in fact, mainly Korean music. I don't know why because I used to dislike bands in Korea especially DBSK. I'm guessing it's probably because now I'm a translator at a Korean Enterainment site and I've been really active in the forums. Honestly, talking about K-Pop has never been so fun.
Bebo and Facebook is so gay now, especially Facebook. It seems like everyone has Facebook and most of them all act so gay. Online or offline, I'm not surprised for some.
+I cleaned my room last night and I found so many new stuff that I never used. Like ipod cases, hair extension, note books (mostly from
Smiggle and
Morning Glory), pencil cases. And they are all new like all wrapped up in packages. Yeah and I don't want them anymore? So I'm selling them online using my mum's Ebay account :)
So if anyone is interested you should tell me 'cos I have ten new pencil cases from Smiggle and note books from Morning Glory that I bought for like $10. Now I'm selling them for like $4 or some shit.
Listening: Breathe - G-Dragon
Reading:
Addicted:
Picture credit: http://banp.deviantart.com/
Labels: internet, real life, school
Society Says
Sunday, 6 September 2009 // 10:14 am
I've had a busy week that explains why on all the weird entries. I will be even busier next week so don't be surprised if I don't post all week.
Recently I'm both shocked and disappointed of my life due to the little things that happen day by day. At first they seemed to be small and whatever but now slowly they are building up together. Thinking about it now though... what a joke.
Edit: Some people just can't lose and when they do they get a bit over reacted. Tries to make it all seem OK to them but fails. No one is blaming you for the fact your too scared to post own photos of yourself up because well, your just too ugly. No one blamed you for the fact you posted up pictures of
blondies and pretended as them.
Drop it before everyone throws shits at you. Just because no one is mentioning about it it does not mean people already forgot about it. Everyone just have a life unlike this person. Internet is the best they can do.
Woot.
Listening: 22 - Lily Allen
Reading:
Addicted: honoured deaths
It's sad but it's true how society says, her life is already over.
Labels: real life
Guys I'm Sorry - again
Thursday, 27 August 2009 // 6:54 pm
I am so sorry. I realised, I'm so selfish. Through all those hard times you guys has always been there for me without any complaining. Not only that, you guys even tried to cheer me up. I however, failed to do all those things.
Whenever people needed my help, I stay as far away as possible. I just didn't want to get myself into a mess with other people.
I'm so selfish.
Take what happened today for exmaple. I broke my digital camera and Julien offered me her new Prada phone. Although the camera on that phone is only 2 mega pixels but it was the newest version of Prada phones. I was like "..."
Then Vicky decided she would buy new a new digital camera, nothing near my old and dead camera of course which is 8 mega pixels. I was so touched for a second.
If this situation happend to other people I would be thinking "who cares. Not my camera." I promise these kinds of feelings won't happen again!
Labels: real life
I am me, your not needed in my world
Thursday, 11 June 2009 // 9:02 pm
I will not care if you say my friends are fat, nerdy, Asian or ugly. They are my friends and I do not consider you anymore than a person who judges people by their appearance. I like them just the way they are and I do not think they should change for anyone especially for fitting in. (Not mentiong any names...)
Also, how many times do I have to say it?
I am not your personal photoshop (or bebo) editor! You did not pay me for it, so I do not have to do it for you. Not like I'm actually worth paying for anyways. :$ You think you can treat me like a stranger in school then start a nice conversation with me on msn and then after a few seconds start asking me questions about bebo or photoshop will work? Well it's not working.
This message is not only to the people who send messages about it recently but to everyone who had done it.Internet is just a small part of my life. I will not care if you start hating me about it because I never liked you in the first place :D Yes, I will help my friends if they need help but not you. People who try and act nice when they need help.
Anyways, it's now 22:29pm (time at the top is wrong). Just finished my Technology assignment. It was fun actually but designing a uniform really isn't my kind of thing. I have decided to get my marks because thanks to Josephine today. She told me if I don't start getting my marks up I will be kicked out of Gifted and Talented class (fine with me...) and some other people like Joan will replace me (not find with me)! Don't get me wrong, Joan is alright but I don't like the idea of someone replacing me.
So I'm getting my marks up for myself and... for my parents (: Say I'm a nerd I couldn't care less. I feel more comfortable being one anyways. I suppose I should go and sleep now? Have to wake up at six tomorrow in the morning S: OH YEAH! MOVIES TOMORROW WITH DAD - HOPEFULLY. Yes! Yeah, I'm a family girl.
Oh and found out Evie (Evangeline) in my class is actually going to the China trip! ;o Yes! I won't be a loner! Yes! I'm not the only one in Year 7. Oh my god, I really have to go to sleep now. Tomorrow -
assignment due, English test money due, China trip (and passport) information due, movies with dad and maybe movies with Kristy, Vanessa and Anna in the weekends? Aye, busy week. I like, I like (;
Listening: BoLoBoLoMi - Xie Na
Reading: Sundae Girl - Cathy Cassidy
Addicted: uh mm... school?
Labels: family, friends, obsessions, personal, random, real life, school
Thank you for the amazing day! :)
Friday, 5 June 2009 // 6:38 pm
Turns out life isn't so boring after all. This awesome day is made up by:
- talking to Wendy and found out why Thuy hates me
- awesome science lesson thanks to Amelia and Jessica
- talking to Julien (and Vicky), 'cos they're cool ;)
- finished watching Benjamin Button
- watching Revolutionary Road later
- and lastly... it's Friday! Duh!
Although I recently got 'dumped' by someone (at least according to him.
LOL, what a joke) I'm still happy because he's just a small part of my life and he's role is not even as important as the toilet. Oh and yer, it's the long weekend! :D
Thuy not only hates me but she is only jealous of me. Big surprise, not. According to Wendy it first started on the first day of high school when everyone was crowding around me for a reason I do not remember. Wendy was like "Oh look, that girl looks kind of popular." to
Thuy and yeah you guessed it, she went mad and spilled shits about me when she didn't even know me personally then! She must take the whole 'popularity' thing very seriously.
A list of things Thuy has done because of me or to make me look stupid: 1) Wearing a headband and everyone said she was copying me so she took it off. Sucker. 2) Starts wearing a tie and wearing it in a way I usually do. Again, people ended up saying she copied me so she stopped doing the way I usually do it but still wearing a tie. 3) Having her hair done or in various weird hairstyles. 4) Starts wearing school pants. 5) Trying to act smart during Math class since everyone knows I suck at math :D &more, but I cbf to type it.
Finally got in contact with James! :D :D Thanks to Martin or else I would never know James actually done such a thing to the band ): All music school buddies meeting in the city this Sunday at the usual old place at 2:00. Everyone who still love/hate/wants to see James then come. All music school friends are welcome (:
A quick shout out to: Julien, Amelia, Jessica just because they are so damn awesome. LOL, had a very fun day today. PWNED Amelia at typing. Also, to any very close friends of mine who have my JW online blog entry password, you can now start logging onto it to view my locked entries since I have decided to start posting entries again. Yes, they are the old usual super damn secret entries of mine ;)
Thank you nekonette.net for hosting me :D I will try and be a good one this time.
Listening: Play My Music - Jonas Brothers (soundtrack)
Reading: Sovay - Celia Rees
Addicted: Mr. Tim Burton's movies!
Labels: friends, real life, school
soccer ruin my life
Tuesday, 26 May 2009 // 4:41 pm
I love soccer yet at the same time it always ruins my day. In primary I didn't like it because I really sucked at it, I wasn't the worst in the team but no one ever counts on me. Now that I'm actually good at it people hate me because of it. You can probably guess, I'm really confused at the moment.
Some people are probably angry about the fact I didn't stay off. Not even once well to be honest, I didn't want to go off... actually no, I do want to go off. But who is there to replace me? No one. Being a goal keeper is not fun, if the other team score a goal then your dead. You have a lot of pressure if your the goal keeper -hint hint: who's me-
When finally someone decided she wants to be the goal keeper instead. I was so thankful of that person... for two seconds because that person was Angela. Oh yes, I'm talking about Angela Si Yu Chen. For the people who don't know her then tough luck. For the people who do know her... yeah you know what I'm thinking right?
I'm going to go and do my Geography assignment and English homework now. -screams- Life is so hard.
ONE MORE THING BEFORE I GO: RUKI IS HOT. DONT ARGUE WITH IT! (:
Listening To: Cassis- GazettE
Reading: Fitterwig - Cullen
Addicted: ruki
Labels: friends, random, real life, school, sport
I am failing
Monday, 18 May 2009 // 9:18 pm
So I didn't really mean to eavesdrop
Thuy and Tiffany's conversation but I couldn't help it. Their conversation was really... something quite unexpected I should say.
But anyways, I fail
- -not able to pay for writing
-worst in drums
-flunked science, math and tech so far.
-no idea what I'm suppose to do with homework
See how all these things i related to school? Yea, school is a ass in the behind. For some happy update, I found Paramore's Decode drum tab on the net. I will be practicing on it as soon as possible :D And that is all for now, I'm tired.
Listening To: Money Honey - Lady Gaga
Reading: Lovely Complex (I'm addicted)
Addicted To: Otani !
Labels: real life, school
say whatt
Thursday, 30 April 2009 // 4:55 pm
I was randomly searching through Gazette fan sites and I found a bunch of yaoi fan fictions. I was so shocked, I know Japan was kind of into the whole yaoi thing and they appear to be in mangas as well but I didn't know people would write these stuff based on actual people. Especially when they don't have their permisson.
Anyways I read one about Reita and Ruki and it was so disturbing =/
anyways, my brother is coming out of the hospital tomorrow :D
Labels: bored, brother, internet, real life
iLoveyou Chris, happy birthday
Tuesday, 28 April 2009 // 3:46 pm
Yup, this is a very special day because my brother has borned, aprox one hour earlier. I can not describe how I feel this very moment. I haven't shared this news with my friends or my cousins yet. I'm going to the hospital later to take some sweeeet photos of him then I'm going to send it to everyone (who are worth sending to of course!).
-some info about my brother-
Name: Chris w.
Gender: a boy (lol)
Sign: Taurus
His face is the cutest thing on earth! :D
Ok anyways, I'll make sure to post a photo of him on here a.s.a.p. Haha, I'm surprised by the fact I haven't told lots of people I actually have a little brother coming. They were just like 'supp.' or 'are you free on tuesday?' and I said 'Can't gotta go hospital.' they go 'wtff? Whyyy?' and I go 'my brother is coming out!' LOL
(somehow I just knew i'm going to be a great sister!) xo
More updates later.
Labels: bored, brother, holidays, real life
