Sometimes I feel like such trash when I compare myself to my cousins. People say you should never compare yourself, and I tell people not to do so myself but sometimes you can't help it.

Labels: personal

Who is this guy? Seriously.

So anyways I recently cut my hair - finally. After months of thinking and going over different hairstyles I finally did it. You know what? It's not that bad. I think a change is nice. I've had long hair for years so I didn't feel sad about cutting it at all.

It's above my shoulders now and really short. It will definitely take some time getting used to (and my friends) but overall I think I made the right deicision, despite some of the comments I have been receiving. Everyone's different so obviously I don't expect everyone to like short hair. But you know, it's my hair and I can do whatever I want with it. Don't be so rude.

Listening:
Reading:
Addicted: Tablo

Labels: personal

Reminder to self: must confirm volunteering activities, due as soon as possible.

Labels: kpop, personal, school

So this is what it feels like ... .... I am so confused.

Labels: personal

I'm really tired and I definitely need a break.

Labels: personal

Second last week! I am definitely not ready for Year 10. All my friends in Year 11 and 12 has been keeping me way too updated with their problems and I can feel so much stress already. If there is one thing I am very worried about it would be subject selections - something my followers would know. Basically ruined my report this year with the stupid choices I made in Year 8.

Listening: Magic - Oneway

Reading:

Addicted:

Labels: personal

So recently I got told by others that my blog inspires them which makes me feel really shameful since I hardly ever update this place anymore (at least compared to before). Yes, I admit the fact that I am lazy and it makes up mostly for why I no longer bother to post new entries but the thing that worries the most is how people I know in real life are reading this. Not that I mind, but they're not just reading this, they're people that reads a few entries of mine and starts judging me as this 'person' and in most cases, they're completely wrong.

Labels: friends, personal

It is when trouble makes a visit when we realise how precious and a good life we had before. It is never too late to make a commitment - only never. Of all greatest things in life friendship and family are indeed the best you can ask for.

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life. (The Lovely Bones)

Life is certainly not easy but I am thankful to be breathing and sitting in front of a computer typing this to you. Many expressed their opinions of me as a very emo-tional person. All the time, everyone feels so far away from me. I can be sitting next to my friends at recess and lunch but it feels like we are not in the same world. There is an invisible wall that you can not see or touch, only sensing it there. Me emotional? I disagreed but no one would stop for a second and listen to the two words: I'm Not. Sometimes I say too much but at times it is only necessary. Now a days I even find it tiring to speak, I need to use a lot of effort to do simple things like listening. People say time will solve everything... let's hope it's right. That will certainly make my life a lot easier... I guess the clock does tick life away.

You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and i wish you were dead! Dead! do you hear me? Dead! (A Child Called "It")

Sometimes at the busiest time of everyone else's day, why not stop and freeze for 30 seconds? This is something I repeat on a daily pattern and is what has been keeping me standing for the past few weeks. Think of what you are doing, good thing or bad thing, is it necessary? Will doing it make my life or most importantly, myself any happier? Since I have been sick for the past week and my parents are fighting every night this entry about life is the most I can offer to you guys. Learn to control yourself and the emotions within, it'll become the best skill you can ever learn.

I always get told I think too much and about way too complicated things for someone my age. Sorry to say but I can not control this; people and things around me does. My parents have been the main influence for me since the second I was born and they were nothing but bad influence. I have realised this a long, long time ago but it was until recently that my common sense confirmed it. I refused to believe it, blocking it out but after thirteen years it is simply something you can not ignore. Everything here (except for text in italics) are being typed and told through my way of things. You do not have to agree, just show some respect for it.

Labels: personal

I have a stomach ache.

Labels: personal

There is always a next time right? Sorry everyone.

Labels: personal

Big surprise I'm back. Actually who took me seriously about leaving this? I have all my followers on here and since when did I actually start caring about people stalking my blog? I've been doing this ever since Year Six, the last thing I should be worrying is having people reading my blog constantly and then using it to bitch about me. Honestly the real reason was everything became a bit too much, with the followers and all but mostly because of school. Starting Year Nine, I had absolutely no idea it would drain you out so much.

Labels: personal

Caught you ;)

Labels: personal

It's been a long time followers! Assessment period is finally over but what is greeting me are two coaching colleges at the same time. I just can't have some time to myself :B

Labels: personal

My first week back in Term 2 is finally over. It seemed amazingly long with assignments due and all but next week the journey continues. With assessments, NAPLAN and working on the most difficult assignments this year. You know sometimes I don't know why people don't understand teenage suicide rate is so far, the pressure is unbearable. Jokes, jokes, it's just Year 9. If I can't get pass this then what about Year 12?

Labels: personal

So I am back from my holidays but unfortunately, it is not time to celebrate yet. Assignments due this week and assessment for the next four weeks. I am guessing after that will follow by the yearly assessments which is another period of pure hell. I think this year will be quite stressful.

Labels: personal

A fight with your Dad does not feel very nice. Especially when the word disappointment comes out of his mouth. He hardly ever gets angry but when he does... I would rather not go there. Sometimes I think he's too tense, if anything. He's so nice, to the point where people take advantage of it. We always laugh at him but he never cares. It's his way of living. Since he's so nice, he likes to stand up for others but because of this, we always have fights.

Labels: life, personal

Labels: life, personal

So much regret! Why did I order Chinese take away! I ate a whole tub of rice with chicken. I feel so guilty I don't even... There is family dinner on Tuesday and a wedding on Saturday which means I have to eat... No. Must control self, stop eating starting from tomorrow again.

Labels: personal

entry deleted.

Labels: friends, personal, real life

It's been a week since I've spoken to Felix. Needless to say I am very sad. I'm starting to realize that you notice how some things (or in my case, some people) are so important to you only when you lose them. When it was during the holidays, Felix would try and talk to me everyday and I was like No, No, No. Now it's the other way around.

Listening: Really Really (Feat. 소현) - Dalmation

Reading:

Addicted:

Labels: personal, school

Sometimes I feel like such trash when I compare myself to my cousins. People say you should never compare yourself, and I tell people not to do so myself but sometimes you can't help it.

Labels: personal

Who is this guy? Seriously.

So anyways I recently cut my hair - finally. After months of thinking and going over different hairstyles I finally did it. You know what? It's not that bad. I think a change is nice. I've had long hair for years so I didn't feel sad about cutting it at all.

It's above my shoulders now and really short. It will definitely take some time getting used to (and my friends) but overall I think I made the right deicision, despite some of the comments I have been receiving. Everyone's different so obviously I don't expect everyone to like short hair. But you know, it's my hair and I can do whatever I want with it. Don't be so rude.

Listening:
Reading:
Addicted: Tablo

Labels: personal

Reminder to self: must confirm volunteering activities, due as soon as possible.

Labels: kpop, personal, school

So this is what it feels like ... .... I am so confused.

Labels: personal

I'm really tired and I definitely need a break.

Labels: personal

Second last week! I am definitely not ready for Year 10. All my friends in Year 11 and 12 has been keeping me way too updated with their problems and I can feel so much stress already. If there is one thing I am very worried about it would be subject selections - something my followers would know. Basically ruined my report this year with the stupid choices I made in Year 8.

Listening: Magic - Oneway

Reading:

Addicted:

Labels: personal

So recently I got told by others that my blog inspires them which makes me feel really shameful since I hardly ever update this place anymore (at least compared to before). Yes, I admit the fact that I am lazy and it makes up mostly for why I no longer bother to post new entries but the thing that worries the most is how people I know in real life are reading this. Not that I mind, but they're not just reading this, they're people that reads a few entries of mine and starts judging me as this 'person' and in most cases, they're completely wrong.

Labels: friends, personal

It is when trouble makes a visit when we realise how precious and a good life we had before. It is never too late to make a commitment - only never. Of all greatest things in life friendship and family are indeed the best you can ask for.

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life. (The Lovely Bones)

Life is certainly not easy but I am thankful to be breathing and sitting in front of a computer typing this to you. Many expressed their opinions of me as a very emo-tional person. All the time, everyone feels so far away from me. I can be sitting next to my friends at recess and lunch but it feels like we are not in the same world. There is an invisible wall that you can not see or touch, only sensing it there. Me emotional? I disagreed but no one would stop for a second and listen to the two words: I'm Not. Sometimes I say too much but at times it is only necessary. Now a days I even find it tiring to speak, I need to use a lot of effort to do simple things like listening. People say time will solve everything... let's hope it's right. That will certainly make my life a lot easier... I guess the clock does tick life away.

You are a nobody! An It! You are nonexistent! You are a bastard child! I hate you and i wish you were dead! Dead! do you hear me? Dead! (A Child Called "It")

Sometimes at the busiest time of everyone else's day, why not stop and freeze for 30 seconds? This is something I repeat on a daily pattern and is what has been keeping me standing for the past few weeks. Think of what you are doing, good thing or bad thing, is it necessary? Will doing it make my life or most importantly, myself any happier? Since I have been sick for the past week and my parents are fighting every night this entry about life is the most I can offer to you guys. Learn to control yourself and the emotions within, it'll become the best skill you can ever learn.

I always get told I think too much and about way too complicated things for someone my age. Sorry to say but I can not control this; people and things around me does. My parents have been the main influence for me since the second I was born and they were nothing but bad influence. I have realised this a long, long time ago but it was until recently that my common sense confirmed it. I refused to believe it, blocking it out but after thirteen years it is simply something you can not ignore. Everything here (except for text in italics) are being typed and told through my way of things. You do not have to agree, just show some respect for it.

Labels: personal

I have a stomach ache.

Labels: personal

There is always a next time right? Sorry everyone.

Labels: personal

Big surprise I'm back. Actually who took me seriously about leaving this? I have all my followers on here and since when did I actually start caring about people stalking my blog? I've been doing this ever since Year Six, the last thing I should be worrying is having people reading my blog constantly and then using it to bitch about me. Honestly the real reason was everything became a bit too much, with the followers and all but mostly because of school. Starting Year Nine, I had absolutely no idea it would drain you out so much.

Labels: personal

Caught you ;)

Labels: personal

It's been a long time followers! Assessment period is finally over but what is greeting me are two coaching colleges at the same time. I just can't have some time to myself :B

Labels: personal

My first week back in Term 2 is finally over. It seemed amazingly long with assignments due and all but next week the journey continues. With assessments, NAPLAN and working on the most difficult assignments this year. You know sometimes I don't know why people don't understand teenage suicide rate is so far, the pressure is unbearable. Jokes, jokes, it's just Year 9. If I can't get pass this then what about Year 12?

Labels: personal

So I am back from my holidays but unfortunately, it is not time to celebrate yet. Assignments due this week and assessment for the next four weeks. I am guessing after that will follow by the yearly assessments which is another period of pure hell. I think this year will be quite stressful.

Labels: personal

A fight with your Dad does not feel very nice. Especially when the word disappointment comes out of his mouth. He hardly ever gets angry but when he does... I would rather not go there. Sometimes I think he's too tense, if anything. He's so nice, to the point where people take advantage of it. We always laugh at him but he never cares. It's his way of living. Since he's so nice, he likes to stand up for others but because of this, we always have fights.

Labels: life, personal

Labels: life, personal

So much regret! Why did I order Chinese take away! I ate a whole tub of rice with chicken. I feel so guilty I don't even... There is family dinner on Tuesday and a wedding on Saturday which means I have to eat... No. Must control self, stop eating starting from tomorrow again.

Labels: personal

entry deleted.

Labels: friends, personal, real life

It's been a week since I've spoken to Felix. Needless to say I am very sad. I'm starting to realize that you notice how some things (or in my case, some people) are so important to you only when you lose them. When it was during the holidays, Felix would try and talk to me everyday and I was like No, No, No. Now it's the other way around.

Listening: Really Really (Feat. 소현) - Dalmation

Reading:

Addicted:

Labels: personal, school

My name is Joanne and I'm currently a nineteen year old business and law student studying in Sydney, Australia. I started this blog seven years ago and a lot has changed since then but some things will always remain the same - I still enjoy rainbow lollipops, playing Sims and L4D. Even today, you will continue to most likely to find me playing drums for my neighbours at night. There will always be something special about Takanori Matsumoto, through all the good and bad times, his voice is always the best thing to hear. Before you ask me something please check the F.A.Q. Master List.

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UPDATED (28/8/13):
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