Silently, I Will Return;
Friday, 27 November 2009 // 9:19 pm
Just to let you guys I am trying to update everyday but it's only thirteen more days (excluding weekends) and I'm off to Singapore followed by Japan and China. That's why I need to keep myself busy from packing and basically just organizing and cleaning my thoughts really. Some friendship breakage is appearing lately and I honestly don't have time for these type of things right now. Without knowing the whole story, my friends just accuse me of making up excuses for being too busy to maintain the friendship we used to have. It hurts to hear something like that from a friend especially when I know it's not true.
This whole planning-going-away-for-the-future thing is very private. I do not like spreading it out just so people will be nicer to me and feel sorry for me because of what ever reason there is that I just don't seem to get. Four years ago I did left China without saying anything except to my two best friends, Joanne and Joanna. It was just like another normal school day and after school I just left and never returned. I really don't see the point of making it all so sad and confusing you know. Thinking about it now... I've never actually stayed in a place for a very long time. Friends and everything just comes and goes you know. I do not try to contact any of my friends from China anymore and it's obvious that all of us moved on.
Thinking I'm turning this entry into a dedication post. Thank you for everyone who tried to host a leaving party for me but it's not necessary. I appreciate everything you guys did for me and I will always remember them but I hope I can just leave like the way I came, by that I mean silently. What's more it's not even a one hundred percent sure thing yet, it's still 50/50. I am planning to have a few last good byes to some very close friends, at the moment I have two people in mind and that's about it. I will return.
One last thing before I leave for today;
Happy Birthday Addison.
P.S.: School is keeping me very busy with whole school presentations etc. Sorry.
Listening: When I Fall - After School
Reading: Mao's Last Dancer - Li Cun Xin
Addicted: sims expasion packs
P.S.: School is keeping me very busy with whole school presentations etc. Sorry.
Labels: dedication, friends, school
His First Word
Sunday, 8 November 2009 // 4:18 pm
My brother spoke his first word today. Guess what he said, not mum, not dad but he said sister! I wasn't going to blog but I decided to after that to remember this special day. I never thought the first word he's going to say is sister. But it is... words fail to describe how I feel at the moment.
Ily Chris.
Labels: dedication, events, family
Otani ily.
Friday, 2 October 2009 // 8:46 pm
Note to self: Must clean iTunes, delete all unwanted music videos. Need more space for Lovely Complex episodes. Must finish downloading them all before the exchange trip which is in four days.
So I guess the above note sums up what is happening with my life at the moment. Holidays have started and I can not feel a single worth celebrating atmosphere in the air. Maybe it's because I'm going to miss out my holiday because of the trip. I'm looking forward... maybe.
Life has been pretty crazy for the last two days. At the moment I'm in love with the best guy (not exactly) in the whole world, Otani and he is the person that makes me want to wake up each morning. I don't know what will happen to me if he disappears in my life.
I'm going to miss him so much when I go on the exchange trip. But that's OK because I've got photos of Otani already uploaded onto my iPod. I will look at them every night before I go to sleep. ^__^
Oh and also, congratulations to Anna and Edward! :)
I can not be more happy for you guys.
Listening:
Reading: Fortunes of Indigo Skye - Deb Caletti
Addicted: Otani (2009 Feb - March || 2009 October - forever bb)
Labels: dedication, friends, holidays
